Life isso Unpredictable.yet beautiful.arh crap.

Say Goodbye-Chris Brown

Baby come here and sit down, let’s talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I’ll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain’t been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it’ll only take a minute
You’ll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don’t wanna see you cry
But I don’t wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don’t know? What’s on,
The other side of the door
When you’re walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I’ma do the best I can to get you to understand

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you, it’s me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, “Why? Why?”
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don’t know? What’s on,
The other side of the door
When you’re walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I’m tryna say.
We just can’t go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you it’s me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can’t do it
I, I just can’t do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can’t do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you it’s me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you it’s me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye….

When she closes her eyes,

She’s never really asleep..

And when she’s up,

She’s never really awake..

Tired.. She’s exhausted..

Desperation to sink deep into the temporary lifeless world..

Where her mind will be free from my her depressed soul..

As she sinks deeper..

A dark figure appears..

Alluring her from her solitude..

Stand rooted she stood.

She shivered..

She faltered.

Nearer it came..

A figure without a name..

Caressing her soul blindly..

Deaf ears to her pleas..

The forces so strong..

Every usual second seems to prolong..

In surrender she knelt

The fear she couldn’t dealt..

She’s felt a surge of nausea..

Stigma to her demure..

Can she feel the emotions?

Or were her options stolen…

She shivered..

She faltered..

Opened her eyes..

Darkness filled the room.

Her so called sleep has demised..

The night still glooms.

Where her mind will be free from my her depressed soul..

She’s tired.. exhausted.

But..

When she closes her eyes,

She’s never really asleep..

And when she’s up,

She’s never really awake..

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
Nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

No please, don’t hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your’s!

Love this song by Jason Mraz so much!

I kinda delete the post that I uploaded for today’s arts critic lesson. HAHA. Well, nyways enjoy the song.

SUPERGRASS- ALRIGHT LYRICS

We are young, we run green,
Keep our teeth, nice and clean,
See our friends, see the sights, feel alright,
We wake up, we go out, smoke a fag,
Put it out, see our friends,
See the sights, feel alright,

Are we like you?
I can’t be sure,
Of the scene, as she turns,
We are strange in our worlds,

But we are young, we get by,
Can’t go mad, ain’t got time,
Sleep around, if we like,
But we’re alright,
Got some cash, bought some wheels,
Took it out, ‘cross the fields,
Lost control, hit a wall,
But we’re alright,

Are we like you,
I can’t be sure,
Of the scene, as she turns,
We are strange in our worlds,

But we are young, we run green,
Keep our teeth, nice and clean,
See our friends, see the sights, feel alright,

Are we like you,
I can’t be sure,
Of the scene, as she turns,
We are strange in our world,

But we are young, we run green,
Keep our teeth, nice and clean,
See our friends, see the sights, feel alright.

Weeks seems to pass so fast nowadays. I’m in desperate need of  the magic remote.. then I’ll just go Click! And the world would just freeze or perhaps move in slow-mo. Then maybe I’ll have more time to spare for myself. Ok. Dream on. I have no idea why I am blogging now cuz I was suppose to be listening to the songs that I needed to learn for the coming jams and gigs.

My three fingers are sore after just attempting to play a 4 chords song. Struggling still..

My plan was to go for a swim but as I reached home I realize that my sis had brought her suit to school due to some school activities. Gosssh.. I was like so looking forward to having a nice cool dip in the newly renovated pool.. then maybe swim a couple of laps, You know, just chill and relax…

So many shit happening this few weeks. Pretty fcuked up bout it..

My PP advisor still have not replied to my PP ideas.. wth.. it’s been a week dude.. wth are you doing..?? I need to work on my proposal u mofoe…

Seriously wth.. I have no idea dude.. why the hell are there so much angst in me..? Maybe all this fcukin’ time, I’ve been too fcukin’ hard on myself.. buzy trying to please everyone but in the end.. I got fcuked! Fcuk alllll of you selfish, self- centered mofoes and esp those who dun wana mind their farking business…fcuk off…

This is my space and my blog and I can write any shitt I wanted to in here…. So people.. do me a favour, quit asking why I wrote certain things in here..

Ok relax now… wth is wrong with me… perhaps I’m just angry at myself.

Haiz…..

tomoro jam. Inhaler to my frustrations. .

There are many a times in your life that you might be pretty sure of the road or path that you are taking… Do you sometimes just like sorta gamble your way through..? Maybe just to get a feel of it..?

Let me ask you, Is it better to just follow your instincts or is it more important to plan first? then choose the correct path.. hmms.. What if you feel confuse and unsure or perhaps lost? Do you turn back? Or do you take a different route from where your last landing foot has taken you. You have anyways walk that far to even think of turning back.. You might even upset those who were already use to your company during the long walk of life.. when you had to leave them..

Will the new route leads you to the right direction or will just make you more lost..? Maybe to a better destination than you were expecting? What if the route that you always longed to take leads you to a dead end and you can never find the starting point back again.. ? That will be such a tragedy wouldn’t it? Or maybe not.. Maybe you would prefer to take it as a learning point? Maybe gain experience along the way.. but by losing your way a few times.. does that really helps? Does it make you wiser..? or just more fickle?

Maybe you get attracted by the beautiful scenery or pretty tulips on the other routes that has caused you to stray away from going to the actual route.. or maybe you you wana escape from crossing the river full of crocodiles.. then you decided out of fear, you took another route.. or maybe you just feel like being adventurous… gambling again.. to get that thrill ride..? or maybe you followed the path of others.. perhaps majority.. ? Maybe not..

There are always reasons why people decide to take different routes in their lives.. may it be good or bad reasons.. but in the end.. will they finally find the happiness they longed for..? or wil they just continue.. to walk.. and still felt as lost as they were at their starting point..?

Just a random thought.. hmms..

Hey it’s me again..=)

Phew! It has been a hectic month. Ever since the starting of the month, my band, Mercy May Cry had been practicing hard for the upcoming band and singing competition, ‘Stardust 2008′. So on the 5th of March we went to Anaki Records Studio for an audition. We brought our very own original, ‘Now you’re gone’; the video has been attached to our myspace. The add is WWW.myspace.com/mercymaycry. I think we did pretty well and the judges seemed to be grooved by it.. Ha-ha. We were really overjoyed when we got a call a week later that we have made it thru the semis on the 28th of March which will be held at NUS.

While BZ practicing with MMC, I also practice with a session band for the upcoming Anugerah Band Competition. Very last minute i know but yea… my mum has been askin’ me to join Anugerah. Ha-ha. So I’m doing it for her. heh. Aww.. I know I’m such a sweet daughter. *urgh* Anyways it may lead to me gaining more experience. It was awkward at first, meeting new people, but they are all friendly and i can see that they are a passionate bunch. Boy, Azza and Raihan. So yea. Awesome. =)

On the 16th March 2008, My family had a family outing. Its been a pretty long time since we all went out as a family. We had dinner at one of the restaurant at

Lucky

On the 28th, was the Semis for ‘Stardust 2008′. MMC was the 1st band to go which was kinda nerve-wrecking. We played ‘That’s what you get’ by Paramore. I thought we did ok.. could have been better tho. Many great bands. Knightwings was really AWESOME! Dbl thumbs up for em..=) wuhoo! A’an was like ‘Kuda’ Kepang ing’ with the mic stand. LOL.

Unfortunately MercyMayCry did not make it for the Finals on the 16th May 2008, held at The Arena at Clark Quay. Well, it’s kind of disappointing but I take it as part of a learning experience. May other opportunities come by.. Insyaallah. And e1rwan!! I am NOT ‘Ratu Gelek’ okayyy! I dun ‘gelek ing’ … i move to the groove… heh.

Thanks to those who came. Really really appreciate it!!!!!

Just last sun, 30th of March, was the Anugerah band’s audition, Mine was at nite about 8pm. It was held at Bishan,Junction8 level 3. The judges are Addy Ali, Ann Hussein and guest judge Zul Nasir. I was really nervous. Maybe cuz I did not really memorize the lyrics well enough. gosh. But just whack onli la. Gotta face it no matter what. My parents, lil bro and bestest fren ever, e1rwan came so i din wana let em’ down. Looking at how hard my bandmates work for this also gave me a sense of motivation. We played the song ‘Kembali’ by Lovehunters. Having not played even half of the song, we were cutttt.. by the judges. I tot we din make it.. BUT to my surprise we did! I was stoked beyond belief! that i took the mic and just sang~~~ TERIMA KASEHHHHH~~~ LOL.. din expect myself to be that bold but yea. din noe what got into me. must had woken up the crazy monster slping in me.. LOL.. Yea.. Catch us, CRAZY DOCTORS about 11am at Junction8 level3 this sun 6th of April for the 2nd round of Anugerah Band’s Competition.. Went to Istana Kampung Glam after the audition to catch ‘Motor Jamboree’ Several rock bands came together to hold a concert. Bands like Ignition, Knightwings, Osairis, Malex, Iridium..etc..The place was really awesome la for a concert..

BUT the sound sucks…! Soundman.. i heard was not being professional.. dozing off.. hmmm.. i heard the equipments are from ‘Beat Merchant’ studio.. tsk tsk…

Ouh mannn. 7th of April.. Back to schooooool.. ok think positive! 2nd year dude! *feelin’ a lil bit superior..* heh.

Goshhh dude.. how cud i fergot.! KT Tunstall’s Concert at Suntec on the 27th of March… IT WAS AMAZINGGGG!!! LUv her! She’s oh so fabulous and greatly talented.. LOVE her range of guitars.. from acoustic ones to shiny glittery electric guitar.. If I could describe how she sounded.. She pretty much sounds like an angel esp to her slow acoustic numbers.. It was phenomenal! btw..someone found an indoor ‘Fountain of Wealth’.. lol..

ok.. overall i’ve pretty much cover most events that has got me runnin’ here and dere… and i totally forgot my dear fieza’s bday.. 16th March ryte.. sorry honey.. Happy belated B’day…

My dearie lil sis, hana just left for

Sarawak

Ok..Til i update again..Seeya peeps!

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I’ll never criticize
All you’ve ever meant to my life

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can’t live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There’s nothing left to try
Though it’s gonna hurt us both
There’s no other way than to say goodbye ….